crazy stuffs...can go mad with this guys.. 24/6/11

what i was doin on the day?? on the morning after the briefing, i was call upon my "other" boss..thats what my fren teased me..he was atc a mechanical engineer..nothing to do with me right, but i was helping him to do his work order n stuff..but okla..when i have nothing to do..helping him will full fill those free time.. he was saying.. Lim, nanti tolong saya ye...pukul 10 macam tula..i like..ok no prob...hehe my fren watching frm far n giggling.. wei boss kamu rindu kamula..lol

  then he asked me..wana escape onot..later follow us to do some work at da roof top of the 8th level building of the hospital..cool le..alwiz waiting to do some exploration..onli with our tags..we could go almost anywer in the hospital..hehe..who else could go??no wan..yeah so i obviously dowana miss the chance to go..i wana see the view of klang frm the roof top..hehe so i waited for the time to come..

after lunch..n around 4pm..my fren finally ask me, hey wana go out d?yeah of course..then he told me that atc its not for work..v jus wana take pic at the roof top..jokingly..so i thought its jus a joke..so i went off with them... wearing my proud unimap jacket..during this hour of time the ward will be restricted for visitors to visit..but for us..haha..v are radicare officers..as known by the guards ther..we jus went in while others watchin and waiting..lol..how cool was that..hehe..

so for the first time i been to the doctor's on call room..wher i could c all the pizza's boxes n kfc boxes in the trash..wait..are they like partying??? erm any way..hehe i dun care about it..we went straight to da roof top..wow i love those scenery from there..i could c the whole klang frm here..it was beautiful..onli thing is its was damn hot ther..i mean.of course when u get direct sunlight without any shades..but i dont care..haha

i so anxiously brought out my camera jus to find it dead..lol..wat the heck no battery..n my buddies are like posing...haha sory guys..so have to use khairul's handphone to take our pics..hehe
although it was realy burning hot..it doesnt seemed to stop us frm enjoyin ourselves..hehe..used all the maximum time until its time to go back..haha naughty la v all..

view from the other side of the roof

hehe jus edited for fun..

my own stunt..wuakaka

at the pathway of the doctor's on call room..omg my eyes...

 

touching.. :(

I went through a few short stories to spend my free time..n i have come to one story that realy made me cry.. hope it means something to u guys as well..or mayb it just me that too sensitive..hehe

MARRIAGE 

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. 

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. 

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? 

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! 

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. 

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. 

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. 

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. 

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. 

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. 

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. 

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. 

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside 
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. 

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. 

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. 

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. 

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. 

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. 

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. 

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. 

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. 

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. 

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. 

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. 

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. 
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.... 

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. 

gud nite..i miss you..

its time for me to say good night..as tomolo is monday..arggh..hate mondays..kills the mood in me.. im gona indulge to my bed soon..but my heart isnt feeling right now..i duno y it is all of a sudden..im starting to miss him again..y all this have to happen..

ya i guess i realy do miss him alot..i duno why..is like i could not wake up from dreaming..he jus make me feel so complete..when i am so angry..he will jus melts me down..i miss those things..please..dont foget about me..i alwiz thinking about u here...

sometimes i wonder..if i din text u, din even call..will u ever realize?? will u call to ask if i was ok..n the most importantly will u tell me that u actually missed me too???its ok..watever it is, its never be ur fault..it will alwiz be mine..im not good enuf for u..i dont have each criteria that u wanted..myb its jus me..im imperfect..i fail to win over ur heart..to u,im jus a friend..mayb thats y it does not effect u at all..

the onli thing i could do now..is to jus dream..n continue dreaming..thats the onli way..i could be happy without facing the reality that hurts..even forawhile will be enough for me..good nite n sweet dreams to you.. i miss you..

Daddy's Day...^^

 Today is father's Day and im not there to celebrate with him..wa like this things have become a normal thing for me..huhu..my dad is a one kinda man..wana no why?? hehe obviously he is the onli patient man in the house..my sister, me n even my mum..often gets pissed off so fast n will show it..but my dad..he jus..erm..like watever..hehe but when he got mad...he wont exactly show it to us..but he will jus take his motorbike n leave the house.. for a ride..that time ill no he is very mad..omg..then wen he got home..everyone of us will remain silent until he speaks up..then we will no that he is ok..means not angry anymore..haha

 my dad is a good cook..i love his cooking, my mum cooks too but my dad is special in his own way..so, occasionally my house would had some quarrels between these two master chefs..like my dad prefer in his way, but my mum prefer the other way round..so to settle this..hehe ill be the judge for them, coz my job is to eat haha..but oftentimes my dad wins..*oops sory mum..

   my dad is a chinese man..but he is good in speaking in tamil and even read and write in tamil language without atcually goin to school for it..wow how awesome is that..hhehe ppsst between u n me..this is how he tackles my mum..haha..

  my dad is kinda popular in my hometown..wana no y? coz he atc sings in tamil too...he joins a band and sings for occasion like weddings, dinner n so on..n people loves his singin..so mostly people knew him.. ehem bangganye saya..

  being the leader of the famili, my dad realy works hard..but he will not complain about it..but i know when i look his face, i could c his tiredness n exhaustion frm work..thanks dad for everything, i wish i could repay u..but i could not repay u the amount of love u had showered me..

  " IF UR MUM SAYS NO, GO TO UR DAD" hhehe..this il awiz do... they alwiz say im daddy daugther when i prefer to ask him rather than my mum..hehe i likela..y?coz i no he trust me..

  

hmmm.. wat to blog..wat to blog about..huhu..obviously im out of ideas but hey even i have no idea to ryte.. i could make a sentence out of it..saying i duno wat to ryte..lol ( please ignore all the above, the writer was out if her mind for minutes there).. myb blogging isint my kinda thing..uno like u got to blog each and every day..n u just so many stories..granma stories..jus to show that u are an active blogger..all this are done for fame..hahaha

n then u keep taking pictures of urself, and finding interesting pictures on ur blog..so the that people would evetually will be interested and will come back for more..sometimes.. i feel like this blogging things are are more to get people's attention rather than being ourselves..u no..like desperately looking for people attention so the next day u will become the "buah mulut" means popular..

                   

so im hope i am not in the desperate list..hehe who knows the person who kutuk about this..is the person who atcually good at it..haha..
its already a month over ive been away from my famili..b Fathers day is jus around the corner....but still im here..n i still be here till im done with my practicals..n luckily today is sat n im gona sleep like pig till noon.. hehe i can n i could do it..yeah....i missed home so much..u can never feel anything like home..full love.. secured.. u can look at ur worst n no one will care bout hw u look like....hehe

i love u all....

 im missing all the fun i had with my family..i missed getting scolded by my mum for not doin the house chores..hehe,here..wa..i become so undisciplined person..n uncoordinated person..do watever i like.. sleeping like a pig, getting up late..eat whenever i wanted..left my clothes for days in the pail without washing it..although its sunny outside..haha..if at home..im definitely could hear the music..

 i missing the times that i will not think of spending any of my penny when my parents are around.. about food especially about food..hehe i could jus get anything i wanted..and for other stuffs..all i have to do is to show my innocent face..n could get da money...haha, here erm..i have to think of every penny im spending..omg.. every single cents counts..at least i learnt how to save money..sory dad n mum for being irresponsible child..huhu..its ok..sure theyll forgive me wan..haha

  i cant wait to go back n meet u guys..yeah..im waiting for my practicals to over..then il be on my way to my lovely hometown..yeah!!

wuhuuu

  oh wow...man this been a long time..i got so sad i couldnt update my blog..till i have no idea wat to blog about anymore..haha..life has been busy nowadays..u no..with my practicals..at least i had some work to do..hehe but the most funny thing i learnt is how i could escape from my workin place if u get to bored..coz u dont have a work.. u no wat i mean?..so instead of being sleepy n caught playing games or wateve..i finally found a way to get away from this boredom..


  as i was workin in a hospital..this means that i am also one the satff..haha so i could go anywer i like with just showing off my nametag..huhu most of them will think that im some kinda big person with big status, proud lu..hehe so when i got bored..well il jus follo any of the workers to follow up with their job with my new friend, or jus hangout in the cafe or the library with my fren..huhu man i was bad..i could jus spent at least an hour in the library for the doctors...jus to read newspapers n reading some health magazines.. n of course having some naps there..omg..wat a bad student am i..shame of urself swan!!..


   hey im not that all bad k...when comes to work..il be at my 100% good attitude..hehe..it applies onli when i have no work to do, i barely stay put on the chair..this will b the time of my criminal mind to work out..how to escaped without being notice..and people atc thought u are out for working purposes..hehe.. and because of this..i got sunburn all over my body..coz have been walking around under hot sun..huhu... damn now who will marry me now..haha...gonela nowbody will want me... sorry all this are crap...

when im bored..thats when i started to miss things...and most of it are silly things..

sometimes i wish i have superpowers so that i could just fly where ever i wanted.. jus to escape from  this miserable life

yeah..it is...

   sometimes i just dont feel satisfied when some of them atcually using me for other purposes..like a fotostat girl..ok if its 1st or 2nd time..but when it continues..i got angry...hoooiiiii..im an engineer k..not a fotostat machine k..watla..think im wat now..dahla no allowance..ini bagi kerja lebih..haha..okok..oopss sory.. to emotional nowadays..c till i scold them in malay rather than in english..haha wat to do..since all of the worker there are malays..so i kinda fogoten on my speaking..lol..and i learnt new words frm them as most of them are from kelantan n terngganu..bein the only non muslim ther..err atc no problem...even i look like one..hehe they are fun to work with..i mean in the sense of having someone to talk ti when u got bored..n they way they teach u..luckily most of them are humble..n kind..hehe..so i did not feel like i was atcually different from them..

at least i dont feel that im different

if not, there will be no one to help me..huhu

Arrrghhhhhh....

hey wat the result coming out tomolo???noooooooo..plis its not the time for me to die yet...pliz im still young..ahh..why i have  to go through all this everytime my results comes up...its not i dont like doin the exam, but  i mind getting the result...cracking my head thinking of it...gonela im sure i cant sleep tonight, so i guess im not gona think about it till this friday..then il b crying whole day..its ok coz it will b sat n sun..so nobody will found out if my eyes red or swollen cause of non stop of crying..thank kiu..

" with the way my Heart LoVeS  u right now.. I can'T DecIde Whether to GiVE up Or to kEep gOiNg on EvEn its HurTS Alot thinKIng tHat You'll nEver bE mine " 

Will it be? Could it be..or will it jus be...

 Nowadays im not being myself anymore..sometimes i laugh to myself..smile to myself.....n cry becoz of stupid things..my feelings are totally messed up...should i be happy becoz finally i found some1 whom ive been looking for.. or cry...when it can onli be a dream??y..what i should do to make u realize that i could give up everything for u..jus to c u smile..to be happy with me..even jus for a minute..im scad that i will loose u..im scad that when im in relationship again, when things go wrong...i will loose u 4ever.. i could jus be frend 4ver..but the feelings are too strong that i wanted u all for me ,only for me..onli me.. hw selfish i could be.. 

 Im scad will i ever get a second chance when things gone wrong??..coz im not perfect..im scad although i tried my very best jus to make u consider things again, u wont turn back, and v will end up as totally strangers..no i couldnt bare those feeling..i jus cant..i want u to be with me forever..i hate this feelings..y cant it be simple, so simple where v could jus b friends.. like others..u no hw bad i need you? its like Dory nid Marlin in Finding Nemo..coz when im with u..i feel like im home..

 onli i how hurt it can be..to have those feelings so bad but at the same time loosing it in jus a split seconds n i could not face it again..no..but when he is with me, i dont mind being realy suck in relationship with others coz i knew i still have some1 that i could cry on the whole day..even for whole week...n some1 who will never give up on me to cheer me up, to make me smile again..so i could be myself again..but if he is the one ive lost..no one will be there for me as he does..i could not find anyone like him..no one could replace him..

 im so ashamed when i think back how selfish i could b..coz if i love some1..i would sacrifice my happiness jus to c him happy, shouldnt i? i jus duno why..i realy wanted him..but at the same time im scad that when i have him.. ill loose him, all because of me..i will not blame anyone but me..stupid for loosing such a priceless diamond...coz i realy suck at it..oh god please help me...

 i was so happy when i realize that i do a have a chance...but will it become true? will it become a reality.. im realy hoping for it..when it happens..i will be the luckiest and the happiest girl in the whole world..^^           

when i get bored..

illl biteeeeee....haha nola..aiz today is wesak day.n im extremely missing my home..couldnt go da popular temple back at my hometown..my sis jus text me yesterday that she jus came bc home frm da temple...arrrgghh... and im here sitting in front of my lappy..duno wat s*** i was doin.....man im realy having home sick now...

and even if its holiday...its jus like any other ordinary day for me...so bored..... like my work yesterday..makes me think wat would i would done if im at home nw............

so im goin to do all da silly things today..i wana watch spongebob squarepants and south park series till i vomit..
who say watching does not bring any benefits..huhu each of them have their own famous quotes u no..haha

awwww...arent they are cute..ehem n their quotes are so meaningful..kaka..so hopefully ill survive today by watching all those series..if im not blogging for few days..mean im in icu..haha choi choi..nola means i finally got things to do..

doom of boredom..

well...cant believe i survived today..omg..im having THAASOPHOBIA..in other word, fear of boredom..omg.. neva in my life i could imagine ending up in this kinda situation..neva see that coming..who thought of it btw.. hmm i spent my time looking at the time..the wall the people..lol..like somekinda beggar..onli thingy i was begging for work..aiz..


  if i knew my supervisor will be holiday today..well of course im in too...coz i had a bad stomachache yesterday..huhu..its like needles poking my whole abdomen..omg..n that point of time..i realy missed my mum.. i was thinking wat she would do is she was around..im already 22 plus now..but still i realy do her to take of me.. huhu...i barely could sit up straight..took like 4 tablets of gastric tablets, but..nah..it wont give a damn... finally i took 2 tablets of panadols..n then..i slept off..erm around 4am i guess..aiz if i knew..i would jus taken my mc leave at home rather of getting bored ther...

if im at home...

   And when i get bored, alot things would run trough my head..some are totally nonsense..but most of it brings back all the memories..some of it i thought i get rid off...n some when im trying to..but it wont jus work out anyway..c omg..all of a sudden im emo again..arggghh.here v go..

        

time realy makes me think..when im alone i wonder why

 Although i knew this wont bring me any far..but i duno..myb i jus haven get the wake up call yet.. something that will make me realize that nothing gona happen..n never will b..not all fairy tales have a happy ending, do they... i guess mine too..at least i tried..all was left for me to is wait..or wait till i realize the tru reality.. enuf for me to let it all go..im so sory my dear heart, i have done so much damage to u..u dont deserve it.. u deserve to be happy..ill promise u..u wont b suffering anymore..myb the best way to not have a BROKEN HEART, its to pretend u dont have one...

sometimes im scad..am i realy not important..am i easily forgotten? isit thats y i have to remind that i actually do exists..have u forgotten ? wat i can do to make u think about me...alwiz.. myb it will never be..  myb im jus another normal person..not special..myb thats y im easily ignored and forgotten...

omg..am i having this ???

wat if....  

or mayb its jus

Dear sun seriously u gotta chill abit..

   Oh my God..whats with the weather nowadays..yesterday i dreamt i was eating steamboat at a desert... wat the hell..n i remember waking up with my body soaking wet..well not to that extend, but..i was sweating..my hair was wet...lol..oh god...is the world realy gona end soon???? with this kinda temperature rising each and everyday...disasters will happen frequently..like the tsunami happened in Japan..this is all due to the weather changes..i jus wonder when we all could learn a lesson because of this..cant u all get it???? the mother earth is giving u back for what u have done to her...so please..i beg all the people..those who are reading my blog...or mayb jus making a sneak peak..please save our earth...im very sure u guys are well educated..so it no point of me to start frm the very begining..let us make the change..for the sake of our future generation..*haha ini boleh masuk politik ni...lol

 and now..im at my cabin doin my assignments..barely sit still cause of the heat around me..my eyes were burning...n obviously im getting sun burn each n everyday...aiz..hopefully it wont come to the extand wer my clothes could get burnt when i walk under the extreme heat frm the sun in future..omg..lol

damn..i realy feel like eating ice cream now..omg..

do u no that the Mc donald's Sundae ice cream is from snow man's poop?? nah jus kidding

omg..my old time favorite when i was smaller..hehe mean younger..da 20 cent pop ice..i missed it so much..espeacially now..arrggghhhh...

on this Mother's Day

well..again..i couldnt be with my mum on this very special day..its been a long time since the last time i celebrated with her...i felt so terrible as a child..felt like im not responsible at all..but all i no is my love love for her will never change..although being very far frm home..il alwiz felt her love and warmness that made me feel secure all the time..thanks mom for ur love.. anywer and no matter wat i do, i no she will alwiz ther for me..tru thick n thin..
  im thankful to God..as he created the most beautiful women in my life..i dun no if i could be like her in future..but i do hope..at least 50% are ther..thats more than i could do..thanks mum.. i love u
 biografi of my mum..hehe lol

Name: Thanaletchumi a/p V.Veloo
Age: she born on 26 may 1959..then should b 52 this year huhu

  the things i love about her: she is obviously a good cook of the house..my dad cooks too but she is good in her way..hehe..she is reali a hardworkin person..i never heard her complainin about her work at all..she jus aims to work for the family..my dad alwiz annoys her..haha its a normal thing..but i no she wont keep it in her heart.. if not y she could be with him all the while til now.. she had been tru all those obstacle.. some of it come to a point where she could jus leave us n went off..if she do..myb she would had a better life..but u decided to stay mother..i realy grateful of that..thanks mum..

 she is a patience women..my sis n me alwiz do 'hal' at home..somtimes alwiz  uno..'lawan cakap' haha..in other word wont obey her like that..she will get mad at 1st..but cools down fast like nothing happen..haha thats her alright..myb thats y we take advantage of her...sory mummy..thinking of this special..ive thougt of a song..a beautiful song jus for all mamas out ther..its from Boyz 11 Men..my old time favorite ~ A Song for Mama..love those lyrics alot

You taught me everything

Everything you've given me

I'll always keep it inside

You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything

Or anyone that I could be

And it just wouldn't feel right

If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me

When skies were gray

Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be

What you have been to me you will always be

You will always be the girl

In my life for all times

Mama, Mama you know I love you

Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars

Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Yes it is, yes it is, oh, yes it is, yes it is, yes it is oh

You're always there for me

Have always been around for me even when I was bad

You showed me right from my wrong

Yes you did

And you took up for me

When everyone was downin' me

You always did understand

You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid

And then you come to me and say to me

I can face anything

And no one else can do

What you have done for me

You'll always be, you will always be

The girl in my life, ooh oh

Mama, Mama you know I love you

Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars

Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Never gonna go a day without you

Fills me up just thinkin' about you

I'll never go a day

Without my mama

Mama, Mama you know I love you

Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars

Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Lovin' you is like food to my soul, oh yeah

You are the food to my soul, yes you are

i love u mama..n alwiz will..God bless u n ur generous heart..^^

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  huh..as wat i hoped for..i wish i will be soon be granted..finally i met the boss n talked to him about what i needed..n its embarrassing when he asked about what ive learned so far..i could ans most of it..but when it comes to the the general knowledge on their operation and stuff..damn i gt blur..obviously i din c that coming..haha luckily he is generous enough to let me go..wit the book to study..guess i realy have to get myself used to and realy be perfect on their operations n stuff..fuh..n one more thing..yeay today is friday..wow so fast...jus felt like yesterday..time realy waits for no one..but jus sometimes i feel time goes slowy when i got nothing to do..

i want it my way..

  having some confusion and some complication in my mind n my heart..its kinda hard to tell wat im goin tru ryte now..jus praying everything goes well in the next day..please do not leave me stranded here..i din come long way down here jus to hear this kinda news..i dont mind doin all the hard work..jus dont say ..ah u done..i guess thats the onli thing u could learn here..wat the f***kin hell..

    jus feel like talking to some1..aiz..its ok swan u can makid tru..trust in ourself..u r on ur own now..its either u go ahead n show them..or come bc home n cry.. so im gona..

first day of my practical

  well the title itself explains everything..first day..the nervous feeling..so many question ran through my head.. heart beat rising..lol almost hard to be myself for the first time..as told by my fren the day before, which is to relax n be calm.. i obviously din listen to her.. like preparing myself for the battle field of the century..

  luckily for me..the place im working is jus a walking distance for me..so i could jus wake up at 7am n still can makid on time of my work. the place im working is a hospital, the name: Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah.. ya mus be wondering y am i ther? i am trained under the clinical waste management department, under Radicare Sdn. Bhd...

  din expect that on my first day itself i was assigned to do something hard..after briefing i was brought to the clinical collection n cleaning department. The fun part was my supervisor called all the staff around the department n introduce me to them..wa felt like a vip..huhu..but the not-so fun part is when all the staff started to cal me..'Puan'..lol do i look that old??...but what the hell...i kinda get used to it..

  wat was i been doin on the first day? this time i was assigned to folo one of the worker to learn about their work routine..whic oso means that i had to be one of the to experience it..haha ok..i ok with it..she is a nice women..fogoten her name btw..i followed her wad to wad..ehem collecting clinical waste@ garbage..lol everywer i went people kept asking weather im the new worker..kaka looks like im one of the collecter there.. i learned how to use the big garbage bin..u no the big ones with wheels.. damn it was heavy..
but i had fun..learned to work hard..i was like exhausted at the end of the day but the woman who being my trainer..fuh..like it was nothing to her..wasnt tired at all..haha solute her man..

  wait wait all the hard part has its fun part too..i get to c so many gud looking man doctors around haha.. obivously they wont even bother me cause i looked like one of the 'garbage' collector, but who cares.. huhu its for me to 'cuci mata'..hehe..n..n..i thought i was alone for the whole training thingy..until i saw my frens frm the biomedik course appear at the main office..wa..guess im never left alone..hehe

  so im back home now..hopefully tomolo will be fun as today..is not that im not happy with wat im doin, its quite challenging for me..hopefully i have enough courage to help me hold on till the end of my training..

the dustbins that each and every part of ward has

the plastic bags that need to use for the waste

the place where the cleaning of the dustbins take place

nah..the big dustbins with wheels i was talking about..jus handling one of them get me exhausted..lol

the place wher all the collection bins are gathered

huhu..

  today, i jus reach klang..the place im gona do my practicals..wat a long damn exhausting journey..the whole journey was full of traffic jams..v depart from our hous..(i mean me n my cousin sis) arnd 1pm..we were supposed to reach arnd uno..lik 4 to 5pm..but unluckily it delayed till 9pm coz of the traffic jam..my butt was killing me.. n the  weather did not help either..its rains non-stop,n i barely c the road v were takin..but thank god..luckily, v reached home..safe n sound..(* cant help myself frm complainin) hehe

 so guess..this is it..im all alone now..have to be the lone ranger..dont know wat awits me the next day... im so not ready but i cant wait for it...hope everything goes well...hope my first day of my practicals goes well.. not as planned..but uno..something that will make me wana continue for the next day onwards..praying for it.. wish me luck guys!!^^