THe eND of my tHiRd year..

well..this is it..my last day in Unimap of this semester...n this also means that the end of my third year..by next sem, im gona  be in fourth year..gosh...the time jus flew like nobody's business, like nobody concern about.. n im goin to be the big senior of the uni..omg, its jus felt like yesterday, when i jus walk in as a freshmen..looked so innocent with the face ' i can cry any seconds now'.. but no look at myself in the mirror, its already 3 years now ive been here....so many things has changed, n so do i..well most of it..


  this semester has the most memorable things happened to me compared to previous ones, so many unforgettable moments..some made me cry a river n some made me laugh my ass off..haha, but all of it ill cherish it in my heart forever..


  talking about my finals..nah..i realy have no mood talking about it..all the papers i did quite well... until the last paper.. damn..i totaly flunk it.. it was a total disaster if u ask me..curse u paper!! arrghhh..realy hope i dont have to repeat it..huhu..praying hard for it..
  hmm..what was i doin for whole of this sem..i cant remember much..but i remember being broke now..lol where did all da money went??? haha...lets us recap on all the activities 'applied' during my life as a 3rd year 2nd sem student..haha


Ponggal celebration at Taman Semarak done by the students, love the colours ,erm somwher  in January

the ceremony of ponggal reaches it peak when the milk boils n pour out of the pot

so much..v could not finis it..its like mountain ice kacang.. onli thing it could not flow easily into the stomach like ice kacang does..haha

went to Langkawi with my buddies in January too..hehe
some of the shells i collected..~lame no other work to do..

some of the chocolates i bought except the middle one..got specially frm my fren.^^

thats was in January..hmm wats in February then...


mUrOc- was awesome..love all the robots ther...

my favorite part of the event, the paintball..it was full of excitement..  the robots were so energetic n cute, n people screams at the robot instead to the person controlling it..haha
ok then, wats on March ya,..errm...hmmm..oh ya i remembered..our PROGRAM BASED LEARNING>>in jus 3 weeks..v had to finis our groups jurnal entitled, adsorption using spent tea leaves.. complete with experiments and its discussion..it was a frustrating week.. everyday u had to stay back after classes to finis it..n its more frustrating when it comes to our group, the only group have problems with our calibration curve,in simple words..if v can get that done, v cant proceed with the next experiment.. but oh well..v have done the whole thing eventually, thanks to the group members who realy work hard for it..realy had fun working with u guys..^^


the spent leaves v used boiled till the water coloue were clear..damn..that took days to get that..but in the end..v cant get a fully clear coloured water..


one of my group member..v cal her NIK..^^

the result of our experiment...frm right to left..haha awkward

this is the dye v nid to remove..the name: brilliant Green..hehe i no..the golden shimmering thing will turn into green when u add water to it..

about 3/4 of the samples that have to be tested..still have more atcually...  im glad v have done testing all of it
  ok..thats all i could remember..well in April..ehem.. TA-DA!! OUR first time- not so happening-ever prom nite..* for more info please refer to the older post..wuahaha..lazy wana write all over again..

  hm..after the prom nite...i remember all the nightmares begins as well..all delayed assignments, test n other pbls that nid to be done within one week before our study week begins..i was so stressed.. alwiz showed my long face till Kuala Lumpur *according to my friend..haha i realy wanted to tell sory to him for being such an asshole..haha..n thanks for u know..still layanin my annoying behaviour..complainin n complainin..n he have to pujuk n pujuk..haha..thanks my friend..waitla one day sure will reveal about u on my blog..hehe

   n then the worst nightmares arrives,The FINALS..lol..no matter how many finals ive been taking..the feelings of afraid to fail or even repeat alwiz strucks my mind..damn..cant it be  something more enjoyable instead of torturing us..*never..firstly is causes sleeping disorders to me..im geting insomnia some of the day..some days i slept like a pig..barely lift my head off my bed..


   ive been through all the stages but luckily for me..i did not reach to the cranky part..yet..hehe if not sure it will be the headlines on the news on the next day haha..but onli one thing is my problem..ill study hard if its my favorite subjects..if not i'll end up..



luckily somehw i released some of the stress by hanging out with my frens..huhu our final gathering of the sem..ate some good food after so long.. hope v could like this often in future ya.^^  

kuey tiao basah hehe...4 of us shared one big plate
orange flavored chicken..lovely!!


chia n i

hehe traffic lights hehe..stop ready go.. from left chia, soo yeng, and jia siew

fried prawns, yummy^^
sizzling plate of mix toufu..nice nice
finally..its time to pack to go back home from where i belong..ahh home sweet home.. the packing took me the whole night to finish it..n in the morning..im done wit it n i was ready to leave..hugged my house mates..sob sob..they made tears out of me..gona miss u guys..c ya after 5 months ya..mmmuah n c u perlis after 5 months..yeah..gona miss all the memories..some are published but i will remain in my heart forever^^

dearie blog

wow its been a month long since i post something here..huhu, its a gud news atc, that im not a blogger addict, if not i should b death,well not that serious,but more to crazy by now..haha, is not that im out of ideas to post or anything, sometimes theres a lot of thing been running through my mind,and the thing is..

  life been so busy lately, bz with assignments, exams, even with weather changes..lol the last part shouldnt be a prob at all..but it does, as it creates somthing bad, causing all the delays, all the unwanted decisions, not enuf food,but still had free food,haha..aiz, its not any other normal hot sun or heavy rain..but flood..

 Luckily somehow v manage to survive the flood, when everybody dying to go bc to their hometown,some did,some were stuck at hostel,mumbling all the way, how the heck v could survive n so on, some realy being annoying by urguing over free food that have been provided,lol c'mon people, please grow up!! i din get one thing u no, if there is any event that being held, u cant c them volunteering or even joinin, but jus for something that involve food,wow super fast, so many will come down..realy LMAO, n these people only knows how complain n complain, jus hoped they realy come dwn n do themselves n they wil no hw hard it is.. mayb i shouldnt say bout this now but..somehw they should nola..

  The biggest challenge ever i had during this flood is to do or no to do our Prom Nite.  Prom Nite was established (ehem) after our 1st event was a failure whic is the Farewell Party for seniors. Y it was a failure? atc it supposed to be happening but i guess v chosen a date whic does not realy suits the seniors as they were busy with their final year project..aiz it ok..no time for parties

  So as we changed the whole thing to the title of Prom nite, i thought those who give those excuses will join it.. aha n again..lame excuses..bla bla..sometime jus wonder wer v went wrong, our food was the cheapest of all compared to other university's prom nite, our venue was the most beautiful of all, jus beside the beautiful ocean and we realy dont care much of the attire people would be wearing, all we wanted was to gather people around frm whole university and have fun together, guess u cant fight the nature of people and their daily routines.

  When the news of flood came out, i guess 1st person to freak out was my fren, who is the event's manager..cant blame her though coz she never been into this situation before and most important thing is her birthday on the next day of the event,2nd april..so guess she went bc on the day of the news itself, before it become worst, n leaving her post to me..lol..

  i was like..wait wasnt im the one, 100% dowan the post at the very first place itself..haha guess i was faithed to have the post finally, ok fine ill do it..

 Being the manager is not fun,i can tell u, i have to deal wit alot of people,luckily for me, i have my own crew who are realy gud in helping me to get through, despite having to work during the flood situation, they realy spent their time on this project as well, so heads off for u guys!! im realy touched^^

the working crews
 Then, the situation became worst, non stop rain and water level rising..people kept asking is the event will be still on,but funny the venue of the event itself are not affected by flood at all whic was near sea, wasnt it supposed to be vulnerable?so i was realy in dilema, whether to continue it or cancel it, so v changed the date to 2nd april, whic is more better i guess since the rain stopped for 2day,onli thing is the water level kept raising, and it was very hard for us to travel out frm our hostel..n it doesnt stop there, v were lack of performance, all went back, so i was like begging people to perform for us..aiz, me n my fren was struggling, calling the event as,'a cursed event'.

     Why not? when v finally had a live band performing for us for free, the next day, the main lead singer's dad passed away, my fren n i was like..wat in the world... we wanted to kill each other at the very moment,haha and when v finally did find some performance and prepared everything for the event, v get the news saying that our vice chancellor asking all the event to be on hold till is allowed,its was like one second everthing went so well, then in spilt second,gone...

me n my workin partner


the peaceful view of the ocean, can u believe that, while the other side were having flood?

  so wateva it is,v realy went on with the plan, no more turning back, its now or never,coz next sem will be our final year,im very sure v wont have time to do it..luckily for us, they realy gave the permission to continue after looking at our desperate faces..
   2nd April 2011,
v finally managed to get bus to go out of our hostel to go to the venue for rehearsal and settling those payment to the hotel and stuff, we realy had fun preparing the stage preparing games, blowing ballons n stuff. the only thing left is to go bc home n get ready for the big night,hehe
Putra Brasmana hotel.the view from the ocean glow


the pathway to the ocean glow

half way done by the workers
the time has come n the most nervous person was me, we went there earlier for the final touch, n then finally, hey we r ready
                                                                               

too bad i could not take alot of pic, since sitting with VIPs realy restricted to do anything, i cant even shout at my frens..i mean in a supportive way..lolz..luckily the vip were have to leave early, means that v could do anything we wanted..hehe so v jus waited for the last 30 minutes, where the open dance floor were held. it was damn fun, since its was not atc a slow song,whic it supposed to be, we had like a clubbing style instead,lolz
the guests

me n our beloved mceee^^

from the VIP table, wait wher was i??

oh ya, i was in the game called Perlis fm..haha



Prom Queen^^

my coursemates^^
crew members,thanks guys!!


value of time, value of love..



if u guys are reading this, lets us spend some time thinking about it..


To realize
The value of a sister/brother
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
Who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.

You will treasure it even more when
You can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend or family member:

LOSE ONE.

Remember....


Hold on tight to the ones you love!

Raindows after Hurricane?

 They say happiness jus like a rainbow, it will only appear when one had shredded enough of tears during the cloudy days..same like after goin through the rainy storm where u will finally see the sunshine. Life is like that though, as long we still have faith in life, theres alwiz sunshine and rainbows awaits us on the other side..

Well yeah, mayb I realy did moved on, mayb im not, some days I was so happy, some days I jus wondering y the heck that happens to me, so many things..i guess the fortune teller was right after all..i have no luck… mayb I should choose to not care much about it..its alwiz there, all I have to do is assume its invisible..hw hard could that be.. yeah..hw hard..shame coz I felt it so strong..


Forgive and forget, that undoubtedly good advice, but I guess its not that practical. When someone hurts us, its like an automatic mechanism. We usually wanted to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to straight things right. But without forgiveness, wounds will never heal. I guess the most we can hope for is that one day, we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

If only I could simplify the complexity of my heart, ill find life is much easier to live, no heartache..no worries, no confusion..no wondering..but funny thing is I don’t regret actually..im happy that I had the opportunity to have that kind of feelings, those beautiful feelings..coz without it..i wont know wat love is about..



Life is short u c..u never know whats gona happen next, mayb its gud, or mayb its not..its how u will deal with it..by facing it or running away from it..i guess im coping with my life now, enjoy every single moments n cherishing it. Most of it helps me to grow to be a stronger person, never let myself fall for the same situation that will hurt me again..n im really wishing for it^^




But how does it help when the heart alwiz remembers what the mind tries to avoid? Although days may pass by, the feelings doesn’t seemed to fade.. but its ok..im fine with it.. with my crazy friends around..they make my day full of colours..thanks guys^^

So, im goin to solve this little conflict of my little heart n my brain..having those dilemmas, what to do, if it alwiz like this, when one alwiz give the chaos and the other alwiz ordering what to do and not to do.





how is it like if i can solve it like just another mathematical problem..but i guess i just dont have the solution with me..n i hope HE does..and someday it all be clear and whatever step i took..i will not regret it..



here i am..

Dear blog, its been awhile since I posted something.. its not that im bz or anything, it’s the internet connection in my hostel does not allow me to do so.  Aiz..but finally, here I am..

Life has a different kind of joke for me, u know..coz i don’t get it…it’s a very strange journey of life if u ask me..met many different kind of peoples..those I already knew so long, those whom I jus met, n those whom I thought I knew them..it does make a lot of different u know, especially  when some who u  just knew turn into somebody  important to ur life, and some who u knew all the while turns into strangers in a split second..

 It does happen to everyone..we alwiz wished it was the other way round, when v already make them as priorities in our life..and then v realized v were jus an option for them. And it will come to a part where there will no point of holding on but jus had to let it go..coz its not worth it.


As for me, I cant be someone that others presume or expect me to be. So, im alwiz thankful for those people who decided to stay even if I show them the real me..so special thanks to my friends who are there for me through thick n thin..i realy appreciate u guys a lot.. and i really like to thank 3 person in my life who realy cared about me, telling me that evrything is gona be fine, letting me know that they will alwiz be there when i nid some1 i nid to talk to..although i will be crapping all the while..

These few days realy thought me a lesson of something i should realy open my eyes for..whic is not all will happen according to ur way, coz HE(*GOD) alwiz have different plan for us. Thats y everything happens for a reason.. but jus sometimes I feel, is it for good? And will I ever no that’s the reason behind it?

Well time will be the perfect answer, they told me to be patience, let the time heal the wounds, sometimes it does hurt when it heals itself , y not? When u try to stick back those broken pieces, its like trying to fix a broken glass…it will jus make me feel like..


Although we wished all of these would never happened, somehow it does happens without us being conscious about it..we might think theres nothing wrong until the truth reveals..truth that hurts, truths that will end all this in jus words..

Its funny why am I not angry of any of this, it so hard for me to be angry after what being done to me.. but one thing for sure, its jus made my feelings become stronger than ever, mayb im a fool, dumb…I duno, u name it..but somehw I do enjoy this feelings.. I realy do..its so hard to explain it but its like the Eminem song u know, “jus gona stand there and watch me burn, that’s alright because I like the way it hurts”  or mayb… I jus learnd how to forgive and forget..no hard feelings..because I knew it’s no point arguing over it….

So, I jus have to continue smiling, bringin myself  up together..but the feeling will alwiz be the same, immortal, theres nothing I could do about it ..so, I guess the best way to lead a happy life is not to expect anything in return..u jus give it away.. so I hope..